Posts Tagged ‘NHS’
Neurology appointment – Take 1
Posted on: September 10, 2009
So it’s not exactly been a fun few days, I’m not going to lie.
The robot voice deteriorated into speechlessness again, and I’ve spent the last three days having to write on scraps of paper to be able to communicate.
Which, you know, on the face of it doesn’t sound so bad, but it’s that kind of isolation like being lost at sea with no one there, so you write letters – except everyone still is there, it’s just they can’t take on board what you’re trying to say.
Events always seem to magnify the patheticness of having to resort to write when you can’t speak. Take, for example, the fact that my bike tyre got punctured.
I needed to have it fixed so I could attend my neurology appointment today – without it, I would have had to try to speak to a taxi or bus driver. Neither, I imagine, would have been particularly successful attempts.
Seriously, my brain’s having a right giggle at the moment.
My speech hasn’t been great today. Much harder to get words out than usual, but really oddly since leaving work to come home it’s slowed right down.
My normally quite speedy stammer (I tend to try to push through all the repetitions quite quickly to get my words out before I forget what I’m trying to say) has become almost robot sounding over the past couple of hours.
It’s been a long time…
Posted on: August 8, 2009
…since all this happened now. I’m really starting to struggle to recall exactly when and where various doctor/consultant’s appointments took place; how I got to this position where the stammer isn’t a temporary adjustment, but a fact of everyday life.
Six months, it seems, is a very long time in the NHS. Six months where nothing has really happened. No improvement, just silent resignation.
stammerheadshark * blog about living with an acquired neurogenic stammer 